Living in the bubble....

So life has been more than a little stressful for quite some time now! I don't have to go into the details, just suffice it to say that I have been unemploymed since September, among many other things. So this week I had a very great, very thankful, opportunity and it has made me realize a couple things.

This week I had the opportunity to spend time with some dear sweet friends at a place I used to call home, a place I worked at for 5 years. While being here with all of them has been wonderful and exactly what I needed, it has also reminded me that, I miss this. What do you miss? I miss working! That's right I said it, I miss working!

So many times we get caught up in what I call "living in the bubble" we get up, we get ready, we go to our jobs, we come home, we eat supper, we watch tv, we get online, we go to bed, we go to sleep, and then when the alarm goes off we get up and do it again the next day. We run in a cycle, sometimes we run behind but were still in the cycle of our little bubble. Well I guess you can say I have for the last 6 months been in the bubble of unemployment and trust me people it's never the same ole same ole! I sleep later not because I need to but because I'm bored but more than that I'm stressed and that's how my body copes with stress, I sleep! Great way to hide Trish!!

This week however, I have had to get up and be at a place on time and I can't tell you how great that felt! It has been great, and yet all the while I think of the greatness, I know that next week, the bubble I wish that would pop called unemployment, will be my fate once again, and try as I might, and interview after interview, still yet I find no "working bubble", but as a great friend of my said to me the other day, "it is good to remember that the tea kettle, although up to its neck in hot water, continues to sing. I thank God for you because you continue to sing. Canta Trish, Canta!!!" (canta in spanish means sing!) I feel like that tea kettle the water "stress" around me is there but I will keep pushing forward and praying and seeking God's direction, and while I'm not in the "working bubble" yet, I'll keep fighting til I get back in there.


...these are my thoughts....

Frustrations through trials

We've all been there haven't we? Those days when we are so frustrated with things we are going through, that we start to ask a million questions. Those days when it seems have it that saying we always here "when it rains it pours" is happening to you.

Lately that's where I feel like I have been every single day. From dealing with unemployment, dealing with family issues, changing churches, and many other things that we just won't get started on that things have seemed a bit stressed for me lately. I would be lying if I said everything was just peachy, but I'm getting there.

I love God's sense of humor when it comes to times in our lives like this. I have been so stressed and frustrated and things have been overwhelming to me and in the midst of all that I decided to take a trip to my grandparents house and spend some time with them, and that's where God showed me a little reminder. I was talking to my Mommaw this morning and she had some old photo albums out that belonged to my Great Grandmother and I picked one up. When I opened this cover I found that my Great Grandmother had written down the words to the poem "footprints" (author unknown). The words seemed to jump off the page at me and once again just gave me more confirmation that even though there are frustrations going on in my life through these trials, they are just trials and they will pass and I will come out of this much better!

these are my thoughts....my inner thoughts roll on...

Struggles within.....

Struggles we all have them, we certainly all face them, but it's how we handle them that makes us all so different. Here recently I have been struggling with some things but ultimately I know that I haven't been handling it very well at all.
So when we struggle where to we go to? I know for me I run to my personal Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I run to Him for everything. I realize that in my life I have so many struggles but no matter the struggles I am so blessed! Ultimately we have to realize that everything in life is not going to be a bed of roses! I am so thankful that no matter what I go through I realize that "I can do all things through Christ!"
Time management has been such a struggle for me here lately and I am trying to do better - so one of my challenges for myself is to make more of a schedule for myself and really work on those things that I feel I need to change in my life.
So I am a little rambly today but I have so many thoughts going through my head and I know that this struggles they will past and like a beautiful Kirk Franklin song I love says There is going to be a brighter day!
these are my thoughts....my inner thoughts roll on...

More about trip

So its been just a little bit since I have blogged again maybe one of these days I will get my act together and get this to be a daily blog.

One thing that was so great for me on this Honduras trip was that I got to spend time with my sis Carolina's family. It was so exciting to get to spend a few nights at their home. My Honduras mama fixes some of the best coffee. I'm not sure how she fixes it but it is so delicious! Everyday they would fix us breakfast and dinner and it is always delicious. I was so blessed to get to spend so much time with them. They all feel like family to me well they are family to me and so getting to spend that special time at their house was great. Getting to see my neices Alejandra, Yasseli, Andrea and my nephew Edwin everyday was a treasured moment I won't soon forget. Hanging with my sister Carolina and hanging with my brother Ariel was awesome.

It was awesome getting to do that and getting to spend time with my other Hondurian family the Alvarez family. Getting to see Ever, Yojana, Ivan, Olga, Sessia and Diane everyday was a great thing. Every night I think we sat in front of my laptop and looked at photos we had taken of the day and of videos from the day.

There are so many memories that I will never forget and that I think of daily and I can't wait to share more with you!

these are my thoughts....my inner thoughts roll on...

Photo credits: me - photo of my sis and my neice (Carolina and Alejandra)

What a trip....

What a trip! Yea I'm talking about Honduras....by far this was the best year yet of all the years I have been going to Honduras.... my heart is so full of so many things. I saw so many great things!

I sat on the veranda of the Hotel Shalom and I looked at all the things we had to give to the children for Christmas and my heart became so full to know that these children were going to get such a wonderful Christmas gift. It also made my heart break to know that I wanted to give those children so much more.

There were so many wonderful things that happened. I will try to take the next few blogs and share what God did for me there. One thing I will always cherish is the quality time I got to spend with my girls, my sisters and my neices (they are Hondurian but they are family). I will so cherish the time I got to spend with Yasseli, Andrea, Sessia, and Diane, Alejandra, Carolina, Yojana, Olga; and the with boys like Ever, Ivan, Edwin, and others. I hope to share lots of photos of them on here soon! Soon I will share lots with you my heart is so full. The photo is of Yojana, Me, and Olga.

these are my thoughts....my inner thoughts roll on...

And the World spins too fast....

So what has been going on with my life as of late…well what hasn’t been happening lately would be the more appropriate question. I started out this year in one of the biggest struggles mentally I have ever been in my life. Lots of crazy things have happened and it’s just way to complicated to go into all the details but it just seems that it has been one thing after another.

So here’s what I can say….I now blog as a unemployed person. I was let go from my position and the why’s and the answers to the why’s make me mad, sad, and feeling completely worthless and as I said before going still through the biggest mental struggle of my life. All I can say is now I have to look for a new job, but what I can say is this….I know God will provide for me. I understand that people are selfish in their thoughts and I didn’t exactly fit the mold they thought I should, so you know what I say to that, do what you want you will answer for those things, but I serve a risen Savior who is going to take care of me and I know that He is going to be with me through this whole situation.

The one thing I can say is now I have the time I have been wanting to blog and get caught up on my writing. I have always thought of the idea of writing a book and so maybe this will be the time I can work on it since I have already started it.

So with everything that has happened this year why do I say that the world spins too fast, because truthfully I spent this whole year working every single day - my regular job - a part time job - and then a job I volunteer at -- and it seems this year has flown by and I haven’t gotten to do half of what I needed/wanted to do but now the full time job is gone, I finished the part time job, and the volunteer job went away as well, so now my world has slowed and while I’m in a lot of pain emotionally and mentally, it’s a brand new period for me and my world doesn’t quite spin so fast anymore.

Looking for the great possibilities ahead!

these are my thoughts....my inner thoughts roll on...

The randomness in my head

My head is so full today and so my head feels rambled but this is how I am feeling currently…..

The Lord has blessed me in so many ways even though I am walking through some really tough mental and emotional and even physical things right now I am so blessed. For several weeks now in services at church, well even at churches that I have visited God has been speaking some things to me. I am still patiently waiting and letting Him lead me and guide me but this journey has definitely began.

I know that I will be needing lots of prayer with decisions and things to come in the future but everyday I am trusting God and letting Him lead me. I know that this battle that I am in is not going to be easy it is going to be hard but as the song by the Crabb Family says “He will take you through the fire again!” He has not left me and He never will -- He is my source….and I am trusting in Him daily, hourly, minute by minute, second by second!!!


these are my thoughts....my inner thoughts roll on...