On a day like this....

As a kid me and my sister used to sing this little silly song and to be honest I'm not even sure where we heard it, but it went "On a day like this On a day like this On a day like this Oh....I need the Lord to help me" and after you said oh you had to do different things like clap, stomp your feet, and make different sounds and the song went on over and over like that about 5 times. It was a funny song to sing and it never failed with us that we would sing it until we got on Dad or Mom's nerves - cause we always sang it when we were in the car riding somewhere!

It's funny that I think about that song because this past week has been one of those weeks and while I haven't went around singing that song Ihave thought on some days on a day like this boy do I ever need the Lord to help me! I think I've went through tons of emotions this week but in the end I stand on God's promises knowing that no matter what comes my way that He is faitful and He will take care of me!!!

While I was thinking about that song I kept thinking on the joy we used to got out of singing that song until it annoyed someone when we were litte and even now we sing it for my neice and she thinks it's funny. The thing about that song is not that were every having a bad day - it's just a funny song that you really sing it because of the different songs and hand jestures you make. I'm convinced that my sister and I didn't even realize what we were really singing until the song was so stuck in our head that we can't get rid of it.

I think that's how we are sometimes! As a Christian sometimes we let the world get us so aggrivated that we just feel like giving up, when really what we should be doing insead of singing about how frustrated we are, we should be singing songs like "Stand Still and let God move" or "From the depths of my heart Lord I'm calling out to you" or songs like "I am not forgotten I am not forgotten He knows my name!"

So I say lets purpose for this week to overcome those things that are weighting us down!

these are my thoughts....my inner thoughts roll on...

Trish D

Riding solo....

So in about 2 weeks I will officially been unemployed for a year! I've been riding solo on unemployment for almost a year. I honestly look at this time in my life and go how is this happening to me!!! I have been more than frustrated to say the least about everything that has happened to me over this past year. I've cried more tears than anyone can imagine. Honestly I don't think my family have realized even how many nights I have cried myself to sleep. To be honest my self esteem has been at like a negative 3o lately. I honestly can't even get an interview with anybody and what is so frustrating is because I don't know what else to do. I'm like I look at my resume and I have this huge black spot that says you've been fired and that is beyond frustrating to me especially when I feel like I've been a model employee everywhere else I worked. I used to get promoted easily with every other job and then after 3 years at being one job they decided that I wasn't good enough. Clearly it couldn't have come at a worse time considering the week before all this happened I had to resign my positions at our church of 13 years because the church decided they wanted a pastoral change and since my dad was the pastor that meant I had to be forced out to. So this year of I call it riding solo is because I've been over the top stressed with no job so that means no income and then on top of that I had to go through a church change. Honestly I might be riding solo in this stress filled time in my life but I'm not really because obivously I have a relationship with my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ and He is in complete control. I trust that He sees the future and He knows what I need and everything will workout and so in the meantime I just have to ride the unemployment train solo and know that I have my families support and prayers even if I can't explain to them how I truly feel.......

these are my thoughts....my inner thoughts roll on...