What a time what a time

So as you can tell it has been a while since I have been here to blog! There has been so much going on in my life. Much more than I have time to explain right now but maybe one day.

Things have been so frustrating for me of late but I am trying not to let it get me down. I went to Honduras in November which was so exciting for me. I really really wish I was still there. I had such a great time. So maybe since I am getting back into the whole blogging motion again, finally I will be posting some photos and alot about my experiences there.

This past year has been stressful for me since I am currently still unemployed and looking for a job and at the same time am having to deal with some other things in my life.

I titled my blog what a time what a time because if I could place you in my head right now you would be having a time....the way I feel and the way I see myself right now is that I'm invisible but at the same time I'm so lost in my own memories and feelings that I'm on a horrible rollercoaster!

So this year I hope that I will be much more connected and real than last year. So get ready invisible or not -- I'm going to be blogging at least once a week this year!

these are my thoughts....my inner thoughts roll on...and this ride is getting faster

La Trish!

Sleepy take over

As I sit here and right I don't feel the least bit energized about anything. I should be so full of life life, so ready to take the world by storm. I mean isn't that how we, as Christians, are always supposed to be? I mean isn't that what we've always been told is that were not supposed to have a bad day, that were never supposed to get down or depressed or heaven forbid we might get a little discouraged. Well here's what I think -- while I'm sitting here at my desk so sleepy any minute now I know someone's going to be waking me up and I'm going to have the imprint of the keys I'm typing on in my office on my head, I'm not exactly exuding God's love or am I being very jubilant.

What I am being is a human being who at the worst of time and days like these when i'm having the sleepies take over my life, I'm being the imperfect being that God loves and gave His son to die for me. I'm that person who is in the need of a little grace, and you know if it weren't for "Grace, Grace, God's grace, grace that will pardon and cleanse within, grace grace, God's grace, grace that is greater than all my sins" Where would we be without grace? Well without grace I will be the one that someone sees asleep or tired and yells at but with grace I'm the person that they see has been working long hard hours for over a week and while yes I probably do have other things going on like lack of iron or b12 in my system, I'm the person who could just use a nap and a break and a few things to go my way today instead of how they've been going.

Most importantly though I hope that people realize that although I'm not always overjubilant or always wearing my most perfect smile, if I have a day like today with no makeup, hair pulled back, glasses on and very tired looking eyes, that I've just be through a storm of life and God's all sufficient grace, power and mercy are sustaining me and while I may look a little weathered today, I'm going shine like gold someday real soon!

these are my thoughts....my inner thoughts roll on...

Frustrations through trials

We've all been there haven't we? Those days when we are so frustrated with things we are going through, that we start to ask a million questions. Those days when it seems have it that saying we always here "when it rains it pours" is happening to you.

Lately that's where I feel like I have been every single day. From dealing with unemployment, dealing with family issues, changing churches, and many other things that we just won't get started on that things have seemed a bit stressed for me lately. I would be lying if I said everything was just peachy, but I'm getting there.

I love God's sense of humor when it comes to times in our lives like this. I have been so stressed and frustrated and things have been overwhelming to me and in the midst of all that I decided to take a trip to my grandparents house and spend some time with them, and that's where God showed me a little reminder. I was talking to my Mommaw this morning and she had some old photo albums out that belonged to my Great Grandmother and I picked one up. When I opened this cover I found that my Great Grandmother had written down the words to the poem "footprints" (author unknown). The words seemed to jump off the page at me and once again just gave me more confirmation that even though there are frustrations going on in my life through these trials, they are just trials and they will pass and I will come out of this much better!

these are my thoughts....my inner thoughts roll on...