What a year!!!

WOW! Where has this year gone!  I can't believe it's October already and I haven't written on my blog since the beginning of the year.  This has definitely been a year for the books for me.  No need in going into everything that has happened but let me say I know without a doubt that without my personal Lord and Savior Jesus Christ guiding me I would probably be in a corner in the fetal position crying my eyes out!

Over the past few weeks in particular so many things have happened that are for lack of better word, life changing!  Those moments will forever be in my head and most of them I would love to say were good, but then that would be a lie.  I've learned over the past couple of years but especially in the last few months that life is life and how we react to the things that happen in our life determine how we will live.

Yeah that sounds so much easier typing it or saying it than actually doing it.  There are days over the past few months that I'll be honest I did well to even get out of bed.  Then there are days I felt terrific and I did alot on those days!

Today my heart is in a learning and soaking in pattern, I have "much assurance" as my uncle preached so beautifully last night at church.  There were times in his message last night that  I felt like it was just me, him and God having a conversation.   I love when God does that!  He is the Creator of the Universe, yet with all the billions of people on this planet, last night in at the East Radford Church of God in Virginia, I felt like He was talking just to me!

Isaiah 40:29 says He giveth power to the faint; and to them that have no might he increaseth strength.  That's my scripture right now for sure and it is also my prayer.  Do you ever feel that way?  It wouldn't suprise me to know that alot would say yes!  There are days when I feel so faint, so weak, but then I remember, in my weakness His strength is made perfect, and I would much rather walk in His strength than I would ever want to walk in mine!

My prayer today......Lord I know I'm not perfect, and I know that there are going to be days ahead when I feel faint and I feel the weight of the world on my shoulders.  It's in those days I know Lord that in my weakness Your strength is perfect, and I'm never alone because You are always there with me.  It's on those days I know you are increasing my strength and on those days I know that if I can't see Your footprints in the sand it's because You are carrying me!  Thank You for Your unconditional love to me!....In Jesus name! Amen....

Frustrating now....

So everybody is always talking about how we should be living in the "now", living for today! Yes I know that's what Im supposed to be doing, but what happens when your "now" is so frustrating you'd like to escape to some place far away and have a do-over day!

I can honestly say that over the last few months of my life I have had more than my share of do-over day wishes. I know most will not agree with me on the fact that I should want that but hey your not living my life and going through what I have been and am still going through, I think that my personal Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, understands that somedays, life is just life and it's a "frustrating now" and I want a "happy now" a "peaceful now" a "sanity now". Not to much to ask for is it? Maybe, maybe that's the key is that I'm not realistic in how I feel my life should be going. but I guess when you have to leave your church (of 13 years), lose your job (of 3 years) and have several other "big issues" happen all within 3 weeks of each other, reality is the last place you want to be, although I have been living it for 6 + months now.

I get up and I face each day with the hopes and thoughts and actions that this day is going to be a better day than yesterday, and for the most part that is generally what happens. Then there are my days where I have been for the last several weeks with writer's block so bad that I couldn't even pick out a song to send to my music club and forget blogging, I done good to be able to write my name somedays, that's just the kind of writer's block I was under in my "frustrating now".

However, today feels like a new day! It feels like a better day, I woke up this morning and had music in my heart and mind and the song choice for my music club was so simple, and then to blog to them as I should, it's like God opened the well of my soul and all the "frustrating now" moments disippated, disolved, went away, and words wonderful words and thoughts started to flow out of my head and heart, and well they had to go on paper (well blog) so alot is going through my head and heart today!!!

these are my thoughts....my inner thoughts roll on...

Trish

Struggles within.....

Struggles we all have them, we certainly all face them, but it's how we handle them that makes us all so different. Here recently I have been struggling with some things but ultimately I know that I haven't been handling it very well at all.
So when we struggle where to we go to? I know for me I run to my personal Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I run to Him for everything. I realize that in my life I have so many struggles but no matter the struggles I am so blessed! Ultimately we have to realize that everything in life is not going to be a bed of roses! I am so thankful that no matter what I go through I realize that "I can do all things through Christ!"
Time management has been such a struggle for me here lately and I am trying to do better - so one of my challenges for myself is to make more of a schedule for myself and really work on those things that I feel I need to change in my life.
So I am a little rambly today but I have so many thoughts going through my head and I know that this struggles they will past and like a beautiful Kirk Franklin song I love says There is going to be a brighter day!
these are my thoughts....my inner thoughts roll on...